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A steamer captain in the heart of Africa witnesses the final days of a brutal ivory trader.

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us, welcoming us⁠—who could tell? We were cut off from the comprehension of our surroundings; we glided past like phantoms, wondering and secretly appalled, as sane men would be before an enthusiastic outbreak in a madhouse. We could not understand because we were too far and could not remember because we were travelling in the night of first ages, of those ages that are gone, leaving hardly a sign⁠—and no memories.

“The earth seemed unearthly. We are accustomed to look upon the shackled form of a conquered monster, but there⁠—there you could look at a thing monstrous and free. It was unearthly, and the men were⁠—No, they were not inhuman. Well, you know, that was the worst of it⁠—this suspicion of their not being inhuman. It would come slowly to one. They howled and leaped, and spun, and made horrid faces; but what thrilled you was just the thought of their humanity⁠—like yours⁠—the thought of your remote kinship with this wild and passionate uproar. Ugly. Yes, it was ugly enough; but if you were man enough you would admit to yourself that there was in you just the faintest trace of a response to the terrible frankness of that noise, a dim suspicion of there being a meaning in it which you⁠—you so remote from the night of first ages⁠—could comprehend. And why not? The mind of man is capable of anything⁠—because everything is in it, all the past as well as all the future. What was there after all? Joy, fear, sorrow, devotion, valour, rage⁠—who can tell?⁠—but truth⁠—truth stripped of its cloak of time. Let the fool gape and shudder⁠—the man knows, and can look on without a wink. But he must at least be as much of a man as these on the shore. He must meet that truth with his own true stuff⁠—with his own inborn strength. Principles won’t do. Acquisitions, clothes, pretty rags⁠—rags that would fly off at the first good shake. No; you want a deliberate belief. An appeal to me in this fiendish row⁠—is there? Very well; I hear; I admit, but I have a voice, too, and for good or evil mine is the speech that cannot be silenced. Of course, a fool, what with sheer fright and fine sentiments, is always safe. Who’s that grunting? You wonder I didn’t go ashore for a

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