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me⁠—no one will ever love me so again. I shall never more know the sweet homage given to beauty, youth, and grace⁠—for never to anyone else shall I seem to possess these charms. He was fond and proud of me⁠—it is what no man besides will ever be.⁠—But where am I wandering, and what am I saying, and above all, feeling? Whether is it better, I ask, to be a slave in a fool’s paradise at Marseilles⁠—fevered with delusive bliss one hour⁠—suffocating with the bitterest tears of remorse and shame the next⁠—or to be a village-schoolmistress, free and honest, in a breezy mountain nook in the healthy heart of England?

Yes; I feel now that I was right when I adhered to principle and law, and scorned and crushed the insane promptings of a frenzied moment. God directed me to a correct choice: I thank His providence for the guidance!

Having brought my eventide musings to this point, I rose, went to my door, and looked at the sunset of the harvest-day, and at the quiet fields before my cottage, which, with the school, was distant half a mile from the village. The birds were singing their last strains⁠—

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