It was as if now in my friendâs own eyes Miss Jessel had again appeared. I seemed at any rate, for an instant, to see their evocation of her as distinctly as I had seen her by the pond; and I brought out with decision: âIt must have been also what she wished!â
Mrs. Groseâs face signified that it had been indeed, but she said at the same time: âPoor womanâ âshe paid for it!â
âThen you do know what she died of?â I asked.
âNoâ âI know nothing. I wanted not to know; I was glad enough I didnât; and I thanked heaven she was well out of this!â
âYet you had, then, your ideaâ ââ
âOf her real reason for leaving? Oh, yesâ âas to that. She couldnât have stayed. Fancy it hereâ âfor a governess! And afterward I imaginedâ âand I still imagine. And what I imagine is dreadful.â