at least had not betrayed myself. I should not have been prompted, by stress of need, by desperation of mindā āI scarce know what to call itā āto invoke such further aid to intelligence as might spring from pushing my colleague fairly to the wall. She had told me, bit by bit, under pressure, a great deal; but a small shifty spot on the wrong side of it all still sometimes brushed my brow like the wing of a bat; and I remember how on this occasionā āfor the sleeping house and the concentration alike of our danger and our watch seemed to helpā āI felt the importance of giving the last jerk to the curtain. āI donāt believe anything so horrible,ā I recollect saying; āno, let us put it definitely, my dear, that I donāt. But if I did, you know, thereās a thing I should require now, just without sparing you the least bit moreā āoh, not a scrap, come!ā āto get out of you. What was it you had in mind when, in our distress, before Miles came back, over the letter from his school, you said, under my insistence, that you didnāt pretend for him that he had not literally ever been ābadā? He has not
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