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taught the elements of grammar, geography, history, and the finer kinds of needlework. I found estimable characters amongst them⁠—characters desirous of information and disposed for improvement⁠—with whom I passed many a pleasant evening hour in their own homes.

Their parents then (the farmer and his wife) loaded me with attentions. There was an enjoyment in accepting their simple kindness, and in repaying it by a consideration⁠—a scrupulous regard to their feelings⁠—to which they were not, perhaps, at all times accustomed, and which both charmed and benefited them; because, while it elevated them in their own eyes, it made them emulous to merit the deferential treatment they received.

I felt I became a favourite in the neighbourhood. Whenever I went out, I heard on all sides cordial salutations, and was welcomed with friendly smiles. To live amidst general regard, though it be but the regard of working people, is like

“sitting in sunshine, calm and sweet;”

serene inward feelings bud and bloom under the ray.

At this period of my life, my heart far oftener swelled with thankfulness than sank with dejection: and yet, reader, to tell you all, in the midst of this calm, this useful existence⁠—after a day passed in honourable exertion amongst my scholars, an evening spent in drawing or reading contentedly alone⁠—I used to rush into strange dreams at night: > dreams many-coloured, agitated, full of the ideal, the stirring, the stormy⁠—dreams where, amidst unusual scenes, charged with adventure, with agitating risk and romantic chance, I still again and again met Mr. Rochester, always at some exciting crisis; and then the sense of being in his arms, hearing his voice, meeting

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