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Connie really sometimes felt she would die at this time. She felt she was being crushed to death by weird lies, and by the amazing cruelty of idiocy. Clifford’s strange business efficiency in a way overawed her, and his declaration of private worship put her into a panic. There was nothing between them. She never even touched him nowadays, and he never touched her. He never even took her hand and held it kindly. No, and because they were so utterly out of touch, he tortured her with his declaration of idolatry. It was the cruelty of utter impotence. And she felt her reason would give way, or she would die.

She fled as much as possible to the wood. One afternoon, as she sat brooding, watching the water bubbling coldly in John’s Well, the keeper had strode up to her.

“I got you a key made, my Lady!” he said, saluting, and he offered her the key.

“Thank you so much!” she said, startled.

“The hut’s not very tidy, if you don’t mind,” he said. “I cleared it what I could.”

“But I didn’t want you to trouble!” she said.

“Oh, it wasn’t any trouble. I am setting the hens in about a week. But they won’t be scared of you. I s’ll have to see to them morning and night, but I shan’t bother you any more than I can help.”

“But you wouldn’t bother me,” she pleaded. “I’d rather not go to the hut at all, if I am going to be in the way.”

He looked at her with his keen blue eyes. He seemed kindly, but distant. But at least he was sane, and wholesome, if even he looked thin and ill. A cough troubled him.

“You have a cough,” she said.