Hairpins were necessities of life with which Harry had not been able to provide me, and my hair, straight and black, hung to my knees. I sat, my chin on my hands, lost in meditation. I felt rather than saw Harry looking at me.
âYou look like a witch, Anne,â he said at last, and there was something in his voice that had never been there before.
He reached out his hand and just touched my hair. I shivered. Suddenly he sprang up with an oath.
âYou must leave here tomorrow, do you hear?â he cried. âIâ âI canât bear any more. Iâm only a man after all. You must go, Anne. You must. Youâre not a fool. You know yourself that this canât go on.â
âI suppose not,â I said slowly. âButâ âitâs been happy, hasnât it?â
âHappy? Itâs been hell!â
âAs bad as that!â
âWhat do you torment me for? Why are you mocking at me? Why do you say thatâ âlaughing into your hair?â
âI wasnât laughing. And Iâm not mocking. If you want me to go, Iâll go. But if you want me to stayâ âIâll stay.â
âNot that!â he cried vehemently. âNot that. Donât tempt me, Anne. Do you realize what I am? A criminal twice over. A man hunted down. They know me here as Harry Parkerâ âthey think Iâve been away on a trek up country, but any day they may put two and two togetherâ âand then the blow will fall. Youâre so young, Anne, and so beautifulâ âwith the kind of beauty that sends men mad. All the worldâs before youâ âlove, life, everything. Mineâs behind meâ âscorched, spoiled, with a taste of bitter ashes.â
âIf you donât want meâ ââ