âIf you mean that I was fond of herâ âyes, I was. You know, Emily was a selfish old woman in her way. She was very generous, but she always wanted a return. She never let people forget what she had done for themâ âand, that way she missed love. Donât think she ever realized it, though, or felt the lack of it. Hope not, anyway. I was on a different footing. I took my stand from the first. âSo many pounds a year Iâm worth to you. Well and good. But not a penny piece besidesâ ânot a pair of gloves, nor a theatre ticket.â She didnât understandâ âwas very offended sometimes. Said I was foolishly proud. It wasnât thatâ âbut I couldnât explain. Anyway, I kept my self-respect. And so, out of the whole bunch, I was the only one who could allow myself to be fond of her. I watched over her. I guarded her from the lot of them, and then a glib-tongued scoundrel comes along, and pooh! all my years of devotion go for nothing.â
Poirot nodded sympathetically.
âI understand, mademoiselle, I understand all you feel. It is most natural. You think that we are lukewarmâ âthat we lack fire and energyâ âbut trust me, it is not so.â