She quickened her pace; she ran; she tripped; the tough heather roots flung her to the ground. Her ankle was broken. She could not rise. But there she lay content. The scent of the bog myrtle and the meadowsweet was in her nostrils. The rooks’ hoarse laughter was in her ears. ā€œI have found my mate,ā€ she murmured. ā€œIt is the moor. I am nature’s bride,ā€ she whispered, giving herself in rapture to the cold embraces of the grass as she lay folded in her cloak in the hollow by the pool. ā€œHere will I lie.ā€ (A feather fell upon her brow.) ā€œI have found a greener laurel than the bay. My forehead will be cool always. These are wild birds’ feathers⁠—the owl’s, the nightjar’s. I shall dream wild dreams. My hands shall wear no wedding ring,ā€ she continued, slipping it from her finger. ā€œThe roots shall twine about them. Ah!ā€ she sighed, pressing her head luxuriously on its spongy pillow, ā€œI have sought happiness through many ages and not found it; fame and missed it; love and not known it; life⁠—and behold, death is better. I have known many men and many women,ā€ she continued; ā€œnone have I understood. It is better that I should lie at peace here with only the sky above me⁠—as the gipsy told me years ago.

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