(The tears formed themselves in her eyes.) For really, she thought, pushing a little boat off with her toe, I donāt think I could (here the whole of Sir Nicholasās article came before her as articles do, ten minutes after they are read, with the look of his room, his head, his cat, his writing-table, and the time of the day thrown in), I donāt think I could, she continued, considering the article from this point of view, sit in a study, no, itās not a study, itās a mouldy kind of drawing-room, all day long, and talk to pretty young men, and tell them little anecdotes, which they mustnāt repeat, about what Tupper said about Smiles; and then, she continued, weeping bitterly, theyāre all so manly; and then, I do detest Duchesses; and I donāt like cake; and though Iām spiteful enough, I could never learn to be as spiteful as all that, so how can I be a critic and write the best English prose of my time? Damn it all! she exclaimed, launching a penny steamer so vigorously that the poor little boat almost sank in the bronze-coloured waves.
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