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A thousand years in the future, the builder of a spaceship discovers his emotions.

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Unbearably sweet lips. (I suppose it was the taste of the liqueur.) It was as though burning poison were being poured into me, and more and more.⁠ ⁠…

I tore away from the earth and began revolving as an independent planet⁠—down⁠—down⁠—following an uncalculable curve.⁠ ⁠…

What happened next I am able to describe only in an approximate way, only by way of more or less corresponding analogies.

It never occurred to me before but it is true: we who live on the earth, we are always walking over a seething red sea of fire which is hidden in the womb of the earth. We never think of it. But imagine the ground under our feet suddenly transformed into a thin glass shell; suddenly we should behold⁠ ⁠… !

I became glass-like and saw within myself. There were two selves in me. One, the former D-503 , Number D-503 ; and the other.⁠ ⁠… Before, that other used only to show his hairy paws from time to time, but now the whole other self left his shell. That shell was breaking, and in a moment.⁠ ⁠…

Grasping with all my strength the last straw (the arms of the chair), I asked loudly (so as to hear my first self), “Where, where did you get this poison?”

“Oh, this? A physician, one of my.⁠ ⁠…”

“ ‘One of my! one of my’ what?” And my other self jumped up suddenly and yelled: “I won’t allow it! I want no one but me.⁠ ⁠… I shall kill anyone who.⁠ ⁠… Because I.⁠ ⁠… You.”⁠ ⁠… I saw my other self grasp her rudely with his hairy paws, tear the silk, and put his teeth in her flesh!⁠ ⁠… I remember exactly, his teeth!⁠ ⁠…

I do not remember how, but I-330 slipped away and I saw her straightened, her head raised high, her eyes overlain by that cursed

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