āNow, lookee here, by dear,ā returned old Bettyā āāasking your excuse for being so familiar, but being of a time of life aāmost to be your grandmother twice over. Now, lookee, here. āTis a poor living and a hard as is to be got out of this work that Iām a doing now, and but for Sloppy I donāt know as I should have held to it this long. But it did just keep us on, the two together. Now that Iām aloneā āwith even Johnny goneā āIād far sooner be upon my feet and tiring of myself out, than a sitting folding and folding by the fire. And Iāll tell you why. Thereās a deadness steals over me at times, that the kind of life favours and I donāt like. Now, I seem to have Johnny in my armsā ānow, his motherā ānow, his motherās motherā ānow, I seem to be a child myself, a lying once again in the arms of my own motherā āthen I get numbed, thought and sense, till I start out of my seat, afeerd that Iām a growing like the poor old people that they brick up in the Unions, as you may sometimes see when they let āem out of the four walls to have a warm in the sun, crawling quite scared about the streets. I was a nimble girl, and have always been a active body, as I told your lady, first time ever I see her good face. I can still walk twenty mile if I am put to it.
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