Self, self. Had she been selfish from the very first? What real interest had she taken in her husband’s work? “Right or wrong, good or bad, I would put my two hands into the fire to help him.” Was this the way? Was not this the only way? Win him back to her? What if there were more need for her to win back to him? Oh, once she had been able to say that love, the supreme triumph of a woman’s life, was less a victory than a capitulation. Had she ordered her life upon that ideal? Did she even believe in the ideal at this day? Whither had this cruel cult of self led her?

Dimly Laura Jadwin began to see and to understand a whole new conception of her little world. The birth of a new being within her was not for that night. It was conception only⁠—the sensation of a new element, a new force that was not herself, somewhere in the inner chambers of her being.

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