Why had he married her at all? That was the whole blunder! He had married her because he had seduced her. But girls were always being seduced! That was no reason. No! He couldnāt get out of it. He had married her because he had mistaken a mixture of lust and romance for love; and if he hadnāt found Christie, he might, to the end of his days, never have discovered his mistake! Affection would have superseded lust; tenderness would have superseded romance. All would have been well. It was Christieās appearance that had changed everything; and there it was! Christie and he were bound together now, come good, come ill. But as things were, so they must remain! If his soul was Christieās, his life must go on being his motherās and Gerdaās. There was no other issue.
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