?â (indicating the prince). âFancy him nursing me! Why, he needs a nurse himself! The general, there, will be his nurse now, youâll see. Here, prince, look here! Your bride is accepting money. What a disreputable woman she must be! And you wished to marry her! What are you crying about? Is it a bitter dose? Never mind, you shall laugh yet. Trust to time.â (In spite of these words there were two large tears rolling down Nastasiaâs own cheeks.) âItâs far better to think twice of it now than afterwards. Oh! you mustnât cry like that! Thereâs Katia crying, too. What is it, Katia, dear? I shall leave you and Pasha a lot of things, Iâve laid them out for you already; but goodbye, now. I made an honest girl like you serve a low woman like myself. Itâs better so, prince, it is indeed. Youâd begin to despise me afterwardsâ âwe should never be happy. Oh! you neednât swear, prince, I shanât believe you, you know. How foolish it would be, too! No, no; weâd better say goodbye and part friends. I am a bit of a dreamer myself, and I used to dream of you once.
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