She came out into the middle of the room and stood facing Dolly, with her arms pressed tightly across her chest. In her white dressing gown her figure seemed more than usually grand and broad. She bent her head, and with shining, wet eyes looked from under her brows at Dolly, a thin little pitiful figure in her patched dressing jacket and nightcap, shaking all over with emotion.
āIt is only those two creatures that I love, and one excludes the other. I canāt have them together, and thatās the only thing I want. And since I canāt have that, I donāt care about the rest. I donāt care about anything, anything. And it will end one way or another, and so I canāt, I donāt like to talk of it. So donāt blame me, donāt judge me for anything. You canāt with your pure heart understand all that Iām suffering.ā She went up, sat down beside Dolly, and with a guilty look, peeped into her face and took her hand.
āWhat are you thinking? What are you thinking about me? Donāt despise me. I donāt deserve contempt. Iām simply unhappy. If anyone is unhappy, I am,ā she articulated, and turning away, she burst into tears.