Mr. Bulstrode returned the letter to his side-pocket, and changed his attitude as if his business were closed. Lydgate, whose renewed hope about the Hospital only made him more conscious of the facts which poisoned his hope, felt that his effort after help, if made at all, must be made now and vigorously.
āI am much obliged to you for giving me full notice,ā he said, with a firm intention in his tone, yet with an interruptedness in his delivery which showed that he spoke unwillingly. āThe highest object to me is my profession, and I had identified the Hospital with the best use I can at present make of my profession. But the best use is not always the same with monetary success. Everything which has made the Hospital unpopular has helped with other causesā āI think they are all connected with my professional zealā āto make me unpopular as a practitioner. I get chiefly patients who canāt pay me. I should like them best, if I had nobody to pay on my own side.ā Lydgate waited a little, but Bulstrode only bowed, looking at him fixedly, and he went on with the same interrupted enunciationā āas if he were biting an objectional leek.