Fortunately for the probability of this excuse, so far as appearances were concerned, the post brought me two letters from London friends that morning. I took them away at once to my own room, and sent the servant with a message to Mr. Fairlie, requesting to know when I could see him on a matter of business.
I awaited the manās return, free from the slightest feeling of anxiety about the manner in which his master might receive my application. With Mr. Fairlieās leave or without it, I must go. The consciousness of having now taken the first step on the dreary journey which was henceforth to separate my life from Miss Fairlieās seemed to have blunted my sensibility to every consideration connected with myself. I had done with my poor manās touchy prideā āI had done with all my little artist vanities. No insolence of Mr. Fairlieās, if he chose to be insolent, could wound me now.