âWhy this, Rodion Romanovitch, that I know more than that about you; I know about everything. I know how you went to take a flat at night when it was dark and how you rang the bell and asked about the blood, so that the workmen and the porter did not know what to make of it. Yes, I understand your state of mind at that timeâ ââ ⌠but youâll drive yourself mad like that, upon my word! Youâll lose your head! Youâre full of generous indignation at the wrongs youâve received, first from destiny, and then from the police officers, and so you rush from one thing to another to force them to speak out and make an end of it all, because you are sick of all this suspicion and foolishness. Thatâs so, isnât it? I have guessed how you feel, havenât I? Only in that way youâll lose your head and Razumihinâs, too; heâs too good a man for such a position, you must know that. You are ill and he is good and your illness is infectious for himâ ââ ⌠Iâll tell you about it when you are more yourself.â ââ ⌠But do sit down, for goodnessâ sake. Please rest, you look shocking, do sit down.â
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