āI donāt believe a word of it. You have a lover. If you hadnāt, you wouldnāt be such aā āsuch a little idiot.ā He was conscious, before the expression in her eyes, that he had uttered something of a non-sequitur, and dropped back too abruptly into the verbal freedom of his connubial days. He turned away to the door. But he could not go out. Something within himā āthat most deep and secret Forsyte quality, the impossibility of letting go, the impossibility of seeing the fantastic and forlorn nature of his own tenacityā āprevented him. He turned about again, and there stood, with his back against the door, as hers was against the wall opposite, quite unconscious of anything ridiculous in this separation by the whole width of the room.
āDo you ever think of anybody but yourself?ā he said.
Ireneās lips quivered; then she answered slowly:
āDo you ever think that I found out my mistakeā āmy hopeless, terrible mistakeā āthe very first week of our marriage; that I went on trying three yearsā āyou know I went on trying? Was it for myself?ā