take the risk of losing me,â he thought, âsooner than lose her child! She doesnât really love me!â What could one expectâ âa girl and French? The one thing really vital to them both, vital to their marriage and their futures, was a child! âIâve been through a lot for this,â he thought, âIâll hold onâ âhold on. Thereâs a chance of keeping bothâ âa chance!â One kept till things were takenâ âone naturally kept! He began walking round the gallery. He had made one purchase lately which he knew was a fortune in itself, and he halted before itâ âa girl with dull gold hair which looked like filaments of metal gazing at a little golden monster she was holding in her hand. Even at this tortured moment he could just feel the extraordinary nature of the bargain he had madeâ âadmire the quality of the table, the floor, the chair, the girlâs figure, the absorbed expression on her face, the dull gold filaments of her hair, the bright gold of the little monster. Collecting pictures; growing richer, richer! What use, ifâ â! He turned his back abruptly on the picture, and went to the window. Some of his doves had flown up from their perches round the dovecot, and were stretching their wings in the wind. In the clear sharp sunlight their whiteness almost flashed.
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