If someone had asked him in those days, āIn confidenceā āare you in love with this girl?ā he would have replied: āIn love? What is love? If you mean do I feel to her as I did towards Irene in those old days when I first met her and she would not have me; when I sighed and starved after her and couldnāt rest a minute until she yieldedā āno! If you mean do I admire her youth and prettiness, do my senses ache a little when I see her moving aboutā āyes! Do I think she will keep me straight, make me a creditable wife and a good mother for my children?ā āagain, yes! What more do I need? and what more do three-quarters of the women who are married get from the men who marry them?ā And if the enquirer had pursued his query, āAnd do you think it was fair to have tempted this girl to give herself to you for life unless you have really touched her heart?ā he would have answered: āThe French see these things differently from us. They look at marriage from the point of view of establishments and children; and, from my own experience, I am not at all sure that theirs is not the sensible view. I shall not expect this time more than I can get, or she can give. Years hence I shouldnāt be surprised if I have trouble with her; but I shall be getting old, I shall have children by then. I shall shut my eyes.
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