If someone had asked him in those days, ā€œIn confidence⁠—are you in love with this girl?ā€ he would have replied: ā€œIn love? What is love? If you mean do I feel to her as I did towards Irene in those old days when I first met her and she would not have me; when I sighed and starved after her and couldn’t rest a minute until she yielded⁠—no! If you mean do I admire her youth and prettiness, do my senses ache a little when I see her moving about⁠—yes! Do I think she will keep me straight, make me a creditable wife and a good mother for my children?⁠—again, yes! What more do I need? and what more do three-quarters of the women who are married get from the men who marry them?ā€ And if the enquirer had pursued his query, ā€œAnd do you think it was fair to have tempted this girl to give herself to you for life unless you have really touched her heart?ā€ he would have answered: ā€œThe French see these things differently from us. They look at marriage from the point of view of establishments and children; and, from my own experience, I am not at all sure that theirs is not the sensible view. I shall not expect this time more than I can get, or she can give. Years hence I shouldn’t be surprised if I have trouble with her; but I shall be getting old, I shall have children by then. I shall shut my eyes.

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