Four hours until he became public property! āSolicitorās divorce suit!ā A surly, dogged anger replaced that dead feeling within him. āDamn them all!ā he thought; āI wonāt run away. Iāll act as if nothing had happened.ā And in the sweltering heat of Fleet Street and Ludgate Hill he walked all the way to his City Club, lunched, and went back to his office. He worked there stolidly throughout the afternoon.
On his way out he saw that his clerks knew, and answered their involuntary glances with a look so sardonic that they were immediately withdrawn. In front of St. Paulās, he stopped to buy the most gentlemanly of the evening papers. Yes! there he was! āWell-known solicitorās divorce. Cousin corespondent. Damages given to the blindāā āso, they had got that in! At every other face, he thought: āI wonder if you know!ā And suddenly he felt queer, as if something were racing round in his head.
What was this? He was letting it get hold of him! He mustnāt! He would be ill. He mustnāt think! He would get down to the river and row about, and fish. āIām not going to be laid up,ā he thought.