āPyotr Stepanovitch is an astronomer, and has learnt all Godās planets, but even he may be criticised. I stand before you, sir, as before God, because I have heard so much about you. Pyotr Stepanovitch is one thing, but you, sir, maybe, are something else. When heās said of a man heās a scoundrel, he knows nothing more about him except that heās a scoundrel. Or if heās said heās a fool, then that man has no calling with him except that of fool. But I may be a fool Tuesday and Wednesday, and on Thursday wiser than he. Here now he knows about me that Iām awfully sick to get a passport, for thereās no getting on in Russia without papersā āso he thinks that heās snared my soul. I tell you, sir, lifeās a very easy business for Pyotr Stepanovitch, for he fancies a man to be this and that, and goes on as though he really was. And, whatās more, heās beastly stingy. Itās his notion that, apart from him, I darenāt trouble you, but I stand before you, sir, as before God. This is the fourth night Iāve been waiting for your honour on this bridge, to show that I can find my own way on the quiet, without him. Iād better bow to a boot, thinks I, than to a peasantās shoe.ā
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