ā€œIt will certainly be you alone, Stepan Trofimovitch.ā€

ā€œSuch is my fate. I will speak of the contemptible slave, of the stinking, depraved flunkey who will first climb a ladder with scissors in his hands, and slash to pieces the divine image of the great ideal, in the name of equality, envy, andā ā€Šā ā€¦ digestion. Let my curse thunder out upon them, and then⁠—thenā ā€Šā ā€¦ā€

ā€œThe madhouse?ā€

ā€œPerhaps. But in any case, whether I shall be left vanquished or victorious, that very evening I shall take my bag, my beggar’s bag. I shall leave all my goods and chattels, all your presents, all your pensions and promises of future benefits, and go forth on foot to end my life a tutor in a merchant’s family or to die somewhere of hunger in a ditch. I have said it. Alea jacta est. ā€ He got up again.

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