At that time I was a prey to discontent, the more I realized the hollowness of the State and the impossi¬ bility of saving it. I felt with absolute certainty that in all things it stood for the unhappiness of the German race.
I was convinced that the State was sure to check and obstruct every really great German and to support every man and everything that was un-German. I hated the mixture of races displayed in the capital, I hated the motley collection of Czechs, Poles, Hun¬ garians, Ruthenians, Serbs, Croats, etc., and above all, that ever present fungoid growth—Jews, and again Jews.
Seeing that my heart was never in love with an Austrian monarchy, but ever beat for a German Reich, I could only regard the collapse of that State as the beginning of salvation for the German nation.
Therefore my longing grew even greater to go to the land whither my secret love and desire had drawn me from my earliest youth.
6o MY STRUGGLE I hoped to make a name as an architect one day, and, whether fate made me