Françoise, on our return, declared that I had been “taken bad,” that I must have caught a “hot and cold,” while the doctor, who was called in at once, declared that he “preferred” the “severity,” the “virulence” of the rush of fever which accompanied my congestion of the lungs, and would be no more than “a fire of straw,” to other forms, more “insidious” and “septic.” For some time now I had been liable to choking fits, and our doctor, braving the disapproval of my grandmother, who could see me already dying a drunkard’s death, had recommended me to take, as well as the caffeine which had been prescribed to help me to breathe, beer, champagne or brandy when I felt an attack coming. These attacks would subside, he told me, in the “euphoria” brought about by the alcohol. I was often obliged, so that my grandmother should allow them to give it to me, instead of dissembling, almost to make a display of my state of suffocation. On the other hand, as soon as I felt an attack coming, never being quite certain what proportions it would assume, I would grow distressed at the thought of my grandmother’s anxiety, of which I was far more afraid than of my own sufferings.