Now, nervous spasms required to be treated firmly, and discouraged, tuberculosis with infinite care and with a ā€œfeeding-upā€ process which would have been bad for an arthritic condition such as asthma, and might indeed have been dangerous in a case of toxi-alimentary dyspnoea, this last calling for a strict diet which, in return, would be fatal to a tuberculous patient. But Cottard’s hesitations were brief and his prescriptions imperious. ā€œPurges; violent and drastic purges; milk for some days, nothing but milk. No meat. No alcohol.ā€ My mother murmured that I needed, all the same, to be ā€œbuilt up,ā€ that my nerves were already weak, that drenching me like a horse and restricting my diet would make me worse. I could see in Cottard’s eyes, as uneasy as though he were afraid of missing a train, that he was asking himself whether he had not allowed his natural good-humour to appear. He was trying to think whether he had remembered to put on his mask of coldness, as one looks for a mirror to see whether one has not forgotten to tie one’s tie. In his uncertainty, and, so as, whatever he had done, to put things right, he replied brutally: ā€œI am not in the habit of repeating my instructions. Give me a pen. Now remember, milk!

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