I will never see you any more.â (My heart leaped at these words, albeit I was certain that she would come again next day, as she did.) âI shall drown myself, I shall throw myself into the water.â âLike Sappho.â âThere you go, insulting me again. You suspect not only what I say but what I do.â âBut, my lamb, I didnât mean anything, I swear to you, you know Sappho flung herself into the sea.â âYes, yes, you have no faith in me.â She saw that it was twenty minutes to the hour by the clock; she was afraid of missing her appointment, and choosing the shortest form of farewell (for which as it happened she apologised by coming to see me again next day, the other person presumably not being free then), she dashed from the room, crying: âGoodbye forever,â in a heartbroken tone. And perhaps she was heartbroken. For knowing what she was about at that moment better than I, being at the same time more strict and more indulgent towards herself than I was towards her, she may all the same have had a fear that I might refuse to see her again after the way in which she had left me. And I believe that she was attached to me, so much so that the other person was more jealous than I was.
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