“I shall come to a place and pray there, and before having time to get used to it or getting to love it, I shall go farther. I will go on till my legs fail, and I’ll lie down and die somewhere, and shall at last reach that eternal, quiet haven, where there is neither sorrow nor sighing …” thought Princess Márya.
But afterwards, when she saw her father and especially little Koko (Nikolúshka), her resolve weakened. She wept quietly, and felt that she was a sinner who loved her father and little nephew more than God.