DĂłlokhov himself during his convalescence spoke to RostĂłv in a way no one would have expected of him.
âI know people consider me a bad man!â he said. âLet them! I donât care a straw about anyone but those I love; but those I love, I love so that I would give my life for them, and the others Iâd throttle if they stood in my way. I have an adored, a priceless mother, and two or three friendsâ âyou among themâ âand as for the rest I only care about them in so far as they are harmful or useful. And most of them are harmful, especially the women. Yes, dear boy,â he continued, âI have met loving, noble, high-minded men, but I have not yet met any womenâ âcountesses or cooksâ âwho were not venal. I have not yet met that divine purity and devotion I look for in women. If I found such a one Iâd give my life for her! But those!â ââ âŚâ and he made a gesture of contempt. âAnd believe me, if I still value my life it is only because I still hope to meet such a divine creature, who will regenerate, purify, and elevate me. But you donât understand it.â
âOh, yes, I quite understand,â answered RostĂłv, who was under his new friendâs influence.