Still less did she understand why he, kindhearted and always ready to anticipate her wishes, should become almost desperate when she brought him a petition from some peasant men or women who had appealed to her to be excused some work; why he, that kind Nicolas, should obstinately refuse her, angrily asking her not to interfere in what was not her business. She felt he had a world apart, which he loved passionately and which had laws she had not fathomed.
Sometimes when, trying to understand him, she spoke of the good work he was doing for his serfs, he would be vexed and reply: āNot in the least; it never entered my head and I wouldnāt do that for their good! Thatās all poetry and old wivesā talkā āall that doing good to oneās neighbor! What I want is that our children should not have to go begging. I must put our affairs in order while I am alive, thatās all. And to do that, order and strictness are essential.ā āā ⦠Thatās all about it!ā said he, clenching his vigorous fist. āAnd fairness, of course,ā he added, āfor if the peasant is naked and hungry and has only one miserable horse, he can do no good either for himself or for me.ā